Currently Listening War All the Time By Thursday This Song Brought to You by a Falling Bomb see related

well.

the time of kalionata is coming to an end today. the first day of autumn. i like autumn. but anyways...

some of you i will manage to contact later on but with a different screen name. some of you i wont. i might not even post any more. i could just delete all my xangas. im not sure yet right now but that kalionata is to no longer be posted on (by me at least) so.

"This is the end, beautiful friend"

Kalionata: Member Since: 7/10/2003

i do know ill keep the actual site of kalionata up and running because some of my friends say they regret ever deleting their first xangas so ill leave that option up atleast for the future.

<3 eliza(beth) michelle, beth, bethany, emo, mo, jolly beth, jenny ramone

Currently Reading Nobody By Jim Morrison see related

***8/4???/05***

well. im on my break (yes weeman I GET A FUCKING BREAK)

i go back in 15 min or so. shouldnt be on here.

did more drill for band and rotc today.

i just about collapsed the whole time. damn. that was fun!

well. for those of you who apparantly dont know me as well as i thought i believe i must point out a few things for you.

1. my personality changes. (god i hope you can realize that)
2. i am not a druggie or a cutter.
3. i do not like to be around people alot of the time (this rule varies as it does not apply to certain people that i love to death)

<3 elizabeth

***10:30***

AHHH I WANT MY NEW SESSI SEX-A-MA-FONE!!!

and i want to sleep ALL of tomorrow. but i wont. i might get lucky if i sleep atleast a good portion of sunday. but thats as far as my luck extends.

well. band camp was hell. of course. it is in just about anyones opinion. for me tho, today was probably the worst. no. today i didnt have cramps the whole time like monday. and no. today i didnt actually puke like i did yesterday. today i was marching and i would randomly get dizzy and later on hyperventilate. and i wasnt the only one. but eh. oh well. who cares anymore.

BAND CAMP (mostly) ENDS TOMORROW

I GRADUATE FROM ROTC CAMP TOMORROW

ANYONE WHO WANTS TO COME, CAN!!!

<3 elizabeth

***8.5.05***

wow. i have completed rotc camp and most of band camp. i hope i actually know what to do tonight. man ive been getting confused the whole time. haha. hope i just dont trip and fall or anything. hrmm. maybe i should roll my pants up some and tie my shoes better if i dont want to fall...

kayla i hope this is better for you and your bipolar self. AND GET SOME MELLO YELLO.

well. last night i recovered from yesterday pretty well. got to hang out with corey and sabrina. that was interesting. corey and i sparred (think about it and then you might figure out who won...) umm. haha corey nearly choked me but that was oki. sabrina was french. and there was french texas toast.

i think i might try to do something tonight. anyone has any ideas call me cellerphone (AFTER SIX OR DIE!!!)  so. yeah.

ONLY A FEW MORE HOURS OF BAND CAMP!!!

Currently Watching Blow (Infinifilm Edition) By Johnny Depp, Penélope Cruz see related

ok. time for a new post in meh opinion. since the last one is from really about aweek ago maybe?

well.

guess what ive got stuck in myhead and im currently obsessed with...now it is no longer sugar we're going down even tho i am in love with that song...

harvey danger-flagpole sitta

"I had visions, i was in them
I was looking into the mirror
To see a little bit clearer
Rottenness and evil in me

Fingertips have memories
Mine can't forget the curves of your body
And when i feel a bit naughty
I run it up the flagpole and see who salutes
(but no one ever does)

I'm not sick but i'm not well
And i'm so hot cause i'm in hell

Been around the world and found
That only stupid people are breeding
The cretins cloning and feeding
And i don't even own a tv

Put me in the hospital for nerves
And then they had to commit me
You told them all i was crazy
They cut off my legs now i'm an amputee, god damn you

I'm not sick but i'm not well
And i'm so hot cause i'm in hell
I'm not sick but i'm not well
And it's a sin to live so well

I wanna publish zines
And rage against machines
I wanna pierce my tongue
It doesn't hurt, it feels fine
The trivial sublime
I'd like to turn off time
And kill my mind
You kill my mind

Paranoia paranoia
Everybody's coming to get me
Just say you never met me
I'm going underground with the moles
Hear the voices in my head
I swear to god it sounds like they're snoring
But if you're bored then you're boring
The agony and the irony, they're killing me

I'm not sick but i'm not well
And i'm so hot cause i'm in hell
I'm not sick but i'm not well
And it's a sin to live so well"

well. once again me, ley, and weeman have interesting converstaions. i mentioned my ideal suicide of mass suicide involving a huge party and cyanide in the kool aide...but yeah. that aint gonna happen. anyways.

chelsea i hope you had a wonderful birthday. i hope to hang out with you sometime soon. especially since YOURE NOW 14 woo hoo! haha. i <3 you!!!

so...

life is better. its still of course fucked up but who gives a damn. it always is going to be that way.

last thoughts for 8.1.05???

hrmm...

I GETS A NEW SAX-A-MA-FONE SOON!!! MAYBE IN A LITTLE OVER A WEEK OR SO!!!

WOO HOO IT SHALL BE A SEXY SAX-A-MA-FONE TOO (sorry george...)

hrmm. wonder what this saxamafone shall be named?

lets see..also. i must say. im going to try to go to infinity wed. i willbe late. theres no doubt about that.

woo hoo. might hang out with chelsey and sabrina and cory on thursday???

IM GONNA GO WATCH CRISS ANGEL!!!

BYE <3 3LIZAB3TH

***Edit 8.02?.05***

damn. i really need to learn to remember what the date is.

well.

i think i have it figured out how i can get to infinity (for all you riverdale peoples i hope youre happy now!)

well. malea is back (yay)
but. she said shes cheating on meh. oh well. atleast ive still got ley...

lol...yeah...(sorry weeman)

hrmm. what else is there?

"You smell like the beach"-Cory (aka chubs? is that what you said to call you???)

umm...yeah. chelsey and cory agree i smell like the beach. i do not know why...

ummm...is there anything else to my day??? umm. rotc AND band camp tomorrow. should be fun.

yay. ley is getting me a pressie from floridah. woo hoo.

well. im going to go attempt to rid myself of the beach smell. its starting to make me sick.

<3 jenny ramone

OOOH

i believe i have come up for names for my super schmexah sax-a-ma-fone #2.

it is between james and....paul. most likely james since it can shorten to jim. hehe. i like the name jim for well obvious reasons...

 hehe. jim morrison...

well. must go kill some time burn some energy and kill some anger. i might be back later on.

(to most of you out there) <3 elizabeth

8.3.05? damn this is getting ridiculous. i wish i could know what the date is for sure.

ok.

well. just got back from the rotc part of my day.

I KICKED ASS! lol.

i was top freshman in the drill down/simon says thing

yes. sorry chelsey. we ARE stupid sex-a-ma-fones cause saxafones are sessi.

well. go back to band camp in less than an hour. prob shouldnt be on here.

but yeah. man. i cant believe i beat out some of the upperclassmen in the drill down. that was AMAZING. lol. well. now the dude. uhh rector? knows my name. AND my dad wasnt laughing at me! lol. that just made my day. well. gotta go shower and stuff.

<3 3lizab3th (man i need to learn how to type lol)

woo hoo.

my corset vest thingie for my costume hast been made and picked up. SO. if i go out with chelsey and them tomorrow i can have meh corset dress thing.

if i dont get to go i shall be sad.

eh. went to infinity.

i didnt enjoy it. only a very select few things made it alright. eh. oh well. like i said before. i might not be going anymore and besides my schedule might not permit it. oh well.

***8/4???/05***

well. im on my break (yes weeman I GET A FUCKING BREAK)

i go back in 15 min or so. shouldnt be on here.

did more drill for band and rotc today.

i just about collapsed the whole time. damn. that was fun!

well. for those of you who apparantly dont know me as well as i thought i believe i must point out a few things for you.

1. my personality changes. (god i hope you can realize that)
2. i am not a druggie or a cutter.
3. i do not like to be around people alot of the time (this rule varies as it does not apply to certain people that i love to death)

<3 elizabeth

***10:30***

AHHH I WANT MY NEW SESSI SEX-A-MA-FONE!!!

and i want to sleep ALL of tomorrow. but i wont. i might get lucky if i sleep atleast a good portion of sunday. but thats as far as my luck extends.

well. band camp was hell. of course. it is in just about anyones opinion. for me tho, today was probably the worst. no. today i didnt have cramps the whole time like monday. and no. today i didnt actually puke like i did yesterday. today i was marching and i would randomly get dizzy and later on hyperventilate. and i wasnt the only one. but eh. oh well. who cares anymore.

BAND CAMP (mostly) ENDS TOMORROW

I GRADUATE FROM ROTC CAMP TOMORROW

ANYONE WHO WANTS TO COME, CAN!!!

<3 elizabeth

well.

all im going to say is for Jenny Ramone (meh) July 21st, 2005 was a very interesting, long, weird, exciting day. filled with new and weird experiences. everlasting memories and a kick ass concert. yeah. im not gonna go into detail on xanga or im. yeah. some of you already know whats been going on. and yeah. really. id rather just not talk aboutit. but i will say weezer was awesome. i didnt mind ben folds too much but theyre worst song was kinda good lol. taylor, trevor, and their dad might disagree but i thought it was creative atleast.and the security person scared me a lot AND the dude behind me scared me alot. and i think someone near us had marijuana. the dude behind me was very drunk i think. but overall. good experiences. bad experiences. a couple firsts. a couple familiar things. saw familiar people. no one im real dead close to.good concert. God knows what today brings.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAYLOR!!!

oh yeah. joe public killed jenny ramone and weezer, not jenny ramone, killed joe public cause jenny ramone i guess was dead to begin with... oh. and the parking garage after the concert. that was interesting. yeah.

well. im probably back off to dream land. or my living room. i dunno. either way. im getting away from xanga.

<3 jolly bethany

my sad sorry selfish cryout to the cutter

im cutting dry to picture your black broken heart

love is not like anything

especially a fucking knife"

feh.

Currently Reading The Observation Deck: A Tool Kit for Writers (Past & Present) By Naomi Epel see related

wow. i actually didnt update today.

i wish i could say i had better things to do but i cant even remember today.

oh well. it might not have been a necessarily good day.

oh. i know i got over my writers block.

yeah.

oww. im sore. oh well. im used to it. last night i burned my finger a little bit. today i slammed my hand into a wall. fun stuff.

i want to do something completely opposite of me or random or just different but i dont know what. except for dye my hair but i wont get to for a while. oh well. my mum wont even let me dye it to its original shade of beautiful black. so im stuck with the brown hair for a while. unless me daddy lets me dye it red like i want to. and if i dont....maybe ill spend the night with melly poo...and have purple hair or something. yes. that would be fun, yes melly poo? ha. i dunno what im gonna do but i shall find something to do.

<3 jolly bethany

oh brandon, i asked me dad a second ago about my hair being blonde and he said it never was bright blonde but more of dirty blonde or really really light brown (kinda like melly poo's used to be)

man, i wish i could be just a little bit less stupid just once in a while

***Edit 12:00 pm***

wow. it doesnt seem like noon. last time i checked it was 2:00 am. but also i dont have a clock in my room that works. oh well.

ok. well i learned something yesterday.

hand+wall=pain

yeah. im starting to regret it. just a little bit. tis going to be fun playing guitar in 2 hours (oh yeah its a saxophone lesson too) well. the good thing out of all this is...

i have become more ambidextrouslike due to this act of stupidity or blondeness im not sure which. i know brandon would say blonde but. eh. theres no proof!

 ohgoditstaylor [12:06 PM]:  oi
 ohgoditstaylor [12:06 PM]:  guess what
  JoLLY Bethany [12:06 PM]:  what
 ohgoditstaylor [12:06 PM]:  i love you
 ohgoditstaylor [12:06 PM]:  HAHAHA

taylor, that kinda was random, yes. but also since you do that so much, its lost its randomosity

yeah. im bored. im trying to think how to kill 2 hours but all of my friends are at six flags it seems!

me and leslie are bored if you cannnot tell

JoLLY Bethany [12:08 PM]:  the song itself is sad but at the end it says "think happy thoughts" over and over 
Melinda The XVII [12:08 PM]:  lol
 Melinda The XVII [12:12 PM]:  our wrists are fun to look at

...yeah...

eh. ill get some pictures up here later. well wait. ive got one of brandon being emo that belongs up here and one or two of ley

ha. audrey is...entertaining, no?

oh yes. this is justin for those of you that can remember. he is my buddy. he came over to my house a few days ago. and played my guitar. and threatened to steal it.but hes too nice to do that i hope.

 (yes that is my sexy bc rich warlock)

and who can forget ley

well im done for now. who knows how many freakin times i shall edit this post.

<3 jolly bethany

***Edit 5:00 PM***

after doing the equation above (hand+wall=pain)

note that there is another equation

hand+wall=pain PLUS hand+desk=...does anyone know?

my version of a medical emergency.